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28 Mar

Suffering That Produces Life in God's Kingdom

I had a vivid moment when I was growing up. My parents were pastors and they were struggling significantly in their marriage. I was young, maybe six years old, and felt a lot of uncertainty, fear, and pain in seeing them struggle and not knowing what the outcome was going to be. Would they stay together? Would they divorce? I remember kneeling at that age and asking Jesus to come and help—just kneeling in my room by myself—and receiving a lot of comfort. It was a really sweet moment. Things did not get resolved right away, but my parents’ marriage was eventually restored and there was a lot of fruit that came out of that crisis. So I was able to see God’s restoration firsthand, and how he was hearing my prayers and accompanying me all along. That was a key moment for me. Later in my life, while praying, I felt the Spirit saying, “I planted devotion through that suffering.” Although there was a lot of struggle in my suffering, there was something deep being planted about relating to Jesus in those difficult moments of my early life.

12 Mar

My Beloved: Identity in the Ashes

This post is part of our series on walking with God in suffering. If you are just joining us, learn why we are sharing stories of suffering in this introduction.

After serving nearly two years with InnerCHANGE in Little Haiti—a community in Miami, FL—the intensity of spiritual warfare, transitions, and ministry/personal challenges brought us to a place of distress.

We found ourselves, a family of six, preparing for an unplanned ministry sabbatical. It felt like my heart was torn out and shredded.

26 Feb

From Head to Heart: What Do You Really Believe About Suffering? [Video/Download]

We're taking a two month journey into the heart of suffering and how to walk with God in the midst of it. If you're just joining us, you can find the reasons why here.

Last week we asked CRM's Staff Care and Development team leader, Alex Galloway, to help us grapple with a biblical view of suffering by sharing his knowledge and experience. If you missed the first part of that conversation, you can watch it here. Today we're asking Alex to explain a tool that can help us examine our hearts to see what we really believe about suffering at our core. It's a "Theology of Suffering Continuum" that lists a biblical view on suffering and a corresponding false belief that many Christians hold. Take a look at the continuum and then listen as Alex guides us through using this tool to realign our hearts with God's truth.

View the Theology of Suffering Continuum

20 Feb

Why We Need to Talk About Suffering: Biblical Perspectives [Video/Download]

We wanted to continue our journey of walking the road of suffering with God by talking to one of our staff who's helped a lot of people on that journey—CRM's Staff Development and Care Team leader, Alex Galloway. In this interview, Alex speaks to why it's so crucial for believers to examine their beliefs about suffering and develop a biblical perspective. He's also shared a Bible study on suffering with us, which we've made available to you here.

Open the Bible Study 

14 Feb

The Journey of Intentional Grieving: Naming Your Losses

This post is part of our series on walking with God in suffering. Learn why we are focusing on suffering in the introduction to the series.

My daughter is walking the Camino de Santiago for the next two weeks with her dad before she graduates from high school. The Camino is a 791 km (490 mile) spiritual pilgrimage with multiple routes which all lead across parts of southern Europe, ending in Santiago de Compostela in northern Spain. If you are one who believes in sacred spaces, the Camino is just that. Hundreds of thousands of people have walked those paths since medieval times—reflecting, praying, seeking (and nursing blisters).

12 Feb

Just the Word "Grace": Living in the Wake of Suicide [Video]

07 Feb

Re-Ordered, Recovered, Restructured, Resurrected, and Redeemed: An Invitation Toward Healing and Transformation

This post is part of our series on walking with God in suffering. Learn why we are focusing on suffering in the introduction to the series.

Have you ever felt abandoned by God? Perhaps you found yourself in a dark place, wounded, alone, without much hope and wondering if death would be better than life? I have felt all of these things. During childhood, I was sexually abused by family members, and given away as a sexual plaything to my father’s friends. His violent temper kept me silent, and the truth of my desperation would not be known by others until I moved away to college and tried to go on with life. I was now free of my parents' physical clutches but I still felt covered in darkness and deeply wounded by my parents’ brokenness and sin. Though the abuse stopped, I had been utterly betrayed by those who should have cared for and protected me. I was unsure that anyone was trustworthy, I carried deep shame that actually belonged to my parents, and my sense of self seemed inextricably linked to being a sex object to be used as others saw fit. My journey out of darkness was only just beginning.

05 Feb

Acquainted with Grief: Keeping a Soft Heart

This post is part of our series on walking with God in suffering. Learn why we are focusing on suffering in the introduction to the series.

When we got the final word that we couldn’t have children, it didn’t come as any great surprise.  We’d been expecting the news for a while. I actually felt peaceful and content over our situation—God had done a lot to prepare my heart. But occasionally I was taken aback by a sudden onslaught of tears. Tears that came when I watched babies being born in a movie or in a TV show, for example. I couldn’t put my finger on exactly what I was feeling, though. It just hurt. I couldn’t resolve in my mind how I could so easily accept God’s plan and feel good about it the majority of the time and then sometimes still be overcome with emotion. I felt “stuck” somehow.

02 Feb

God of Compassion: Knowing God in the Midst of Our Suffering


I lost my dad unexpectedly in my early teenage years. The pain and grief of this loss contributed significantly to a post-college crisis of faith. Is God really good? Can I trust him? Is he even real? As a teenager, members of my church family described me as having “a halo of hope around my head.” I had experienced the love and care of God in the midst of the intense suffering of grief. But years later, when life hadn’t gotten better and the loss of my dad hadn’t been redeemed as I expected, I lost heart. I was hurt and confused, which led to cynicism. God wasn’t acting as I expected. It took years to climb out of that pit of doubt, and I still experience some residual effects today. But there was one moment that profoundly moved me back toward God.

24 Jan

In This World You Will Have Trouble

“Soon it will be done / trouble of the world / trouble of the world / trouble of the world” sings Mahalia Jackson in the 1950s recording. The minor key and descending piano lines give a brooding feel to the song. There is hope, to be sure, she seems to be saying, but first we must admit that things here are not as they should be.




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